April 17, 2007

quit moping around,

walk through the halls trying to find some meaning.
looking for that one face that will smile, and youll think that you are worth something.
searching for a friend who actually cares.
they all say they care.
they all say they hate "drama"- i hate that word- and they say theyll be with you to the end.
but the end came and they knew.
they didnt move for you.
so now you watch them closely trying to get inside one of their alien heads.
what do these people think about?
why is my life so different from theirs?
all these stupid, pointless things cross your mind.
they arent all against you.
but they dont generally care either, they only say they do to save thier backs.
to be on your "good" side.
but how can one be on your good side when youve only got a bad side and you go through time not really caring back.
well you are a liar.
you say you dont care but you do.
you care so fucking much.
it hurts to think about all of them. they dont care, you do.
you see someone you thought you knew very well and realize that you dont know that individual at all.
that everyhting they told you mightve been the truth at some point, but since then they had changed their mind and did not bother to take two seconds to tell you.
they steal the one thing away that they know you care about mor ethan anything else.
and they dont care.
they say they do but they dont.
and yo, yet again, sigh for you are alone.
how someone so compassionate can end up alone is cruel.
but it happens more often than anything else does.
your hopefull but know you shouldnt be.
youve got nothing going for you.
you are nothing important.
you try to be something.
you try so fucking hard.
you dont want to be a clique.
you dont want to have these emotions.
you want to find happiness.
you need happiness.
you need something stable in your life for once.




Posted on 04/17/2007 8:00 PM Comments (0)
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